after dreaming_the experience

i went home after playing last night and it took a while to detach from the humming the experience of playing created. so much was going on in my mind and yet i was not wired up. positively not. humming describes it more. like a machine of organic wires, running and rendering at different channels, my mind was processing. but the time and speed were perfectly comfortable. i fell asleep easily. i needed the sleep. ...
my experience of going from idle to active playing started at the TiltFactor lab. i got back after dinner with a friend. good conversation. in part, about gaming, and values even: why am i on the dark side, with the destruction team? when i got back, brendan was at the lab, playing. my team at sudikoff. playing. 'order' were in thayer. playing. 'shall i go play? maybe? ... i do feel like it!' we got excited. brendan suggested i bring the camera with me and we meet up for a peace protest. online. the particle in motion in me immediatley said yes! i became a messenger connecting... teams, places, the real and the virtual... [okay, this is getting ambitious -- my CPU is starting to overheat] .. going live -- live and bionic because that creature on the other side of the team was me... & i was her and that was real. must have been because i felt it. talk about blur between real and virtual self... i'm not a pro gamer. but i like in general & what i especially enjoyed last night was being together with the avatarts of my team on that virtual beach together.
probably having chosen a character that i like helps too. don't mind being arnyek. i think i chose a good name for her too. but i think it's the same for other team members as well. we do identify. i mean - i i denti fy .. and as a team we laugh and concentrate and navigate and say hilarious things while playing.
somehow, all this seeped into my dreams. i cannot say for sure how, because i only remember fragments. i'm doing a little research on the game today and see where that takes me. what's the next station?